Learning to trust God

Right now, I can tell that the Lord is trying to teach me how to go about my life by being fully dependent and trusting in His plan.

Jeremiah 29:11 ""For I know the plans I have for you', declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"

This is one HUGE area in my life that I completely struggle with. I am a planner. Deep down inside me, down to my very core, I PLAN! I plan my days, weekends, chores, shopping list, etc. You get the point.

So what is it like for me to have to completely trust that things in my life are not under my control, but God's control? It's like a form of Chinese-torture for me.

Right now, I am facing a semi-small issue at work, that feels ginormous. I'm sure 6 mo, a year from now, I will look back at this blog and wonder why I let myself get so worked up over this issue...cuz no matter what, God's will is going to take place. It is more a matter of getting my attitude in check and being prepared for what the Lord has for me in this area of my life.

I have put on a front about work for a while now. Don't get me wrong, I absolutely love my job. However there are certain aspects of it that irritate me, and have progressively been getting worse. Now most of you would say "Go talk to your boss about it." Well...if only it was that easy. My boss isn't necessarily the most confidential of people. Lets just say, everyone would know my concerns/issues by the end of the day.

So what do I do?? Well, first of all, I pray a LOT. Next, I kick-box, lol. It's amazing what a great exercise you are getting while you beat up on a punching bag and relieve TONS of stress. But bottom line, I am handing this situation back over to the Lord. He knows what my short-term and long-term future holds. He will guide my steps tomorrow and the next day and the next day. He will "never leave me nor forsake me" (Hebrews 13:5b).

"Thank you Lord, for being with me always. I am not the easiest person to deal with, and I must fail many times before I succeed for You, but Your never-ending grace and mercy that is poured out on me, give me the strength needed to carry on in life. I trust in you Lord. No matter where life may lead me, I know You will be guiding my footsteps and keeping me from harms ways. I will go through tough times, but You will carry me. Thank you for dying on my cross, and for being the bridge that closes the gap between me and Heaven. I love You, and trust You."